Sealed with a Liverpool Kiss

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Tuesday, December 30, 2003

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so are we over now? do we just walk away just like we've never
met?

just back from gym+dinner with my friends. Supposed to go to the hosp to visit my friend but she'd asked us to go tomorrow instead. Am dead tired from the gym plus lack of sleep. Did some endurance training just now with the bloody 5kg weights and there still isnt any difference!! Aarrrgh.
Decided to go to sentosa (island life! love it) tomorrow before visiting friend.
Tho i sad in my previous entry that i wasnt that sad, well now i am. Also said that i wont IM him first but oh gawd i did!!! Not that i couldnt help it but i guess it was only right that i told him to take care before he was enlisted. WEll he did reply me and soon we were chatting away like nothing ever happened before. It was good, but somehow i feel that in a way, he's kinda giving me hope. Of course, i'd rather he talk to me than not at all.
The full force of the whole thing just sort of hit my right smack on my face. Oh darn. How i just envy those girls who were once with him. They just have no idea that some unfortunate people (ME!!) want him sooooooooooooo goddamn much but just can't have him. They just dont know how to count their blessings. Ah shite.
And yest night at about 2am, elaine and i were talking on the phone when she texted him and kelv, asking them to take care and all. And the bloody bugger actually called her on her mobile!!!!! I just DIED on the spot. Felt a wave of sadness wash over me as i reminisced about the times when he'd used to give me morning calls every morning during my exam period so i could get up and study. So sweet of him. But now... sigh~ Yeah and so as i was saying, after elaine was done talking to him on her mobile, i told her that if i were to text him a take care message he wont even reply, much less call back. And so to prove my point, i texted him saying take care. He never did reply me. See? What does that show? Definitely a lack of interest. So for the whole entire time while talking to elaine i was whining to her and pouring all my sorrows but soon i guess she'd heard enough so we hung up and i went to bed, reminiscing about everything. I nearly cried but what the hell, i didnt.
This morning i awoke to see an IM from mai who had gone to the us for the past 25 days, asking me to call her when i was up so i promptly did. Told her part of my sad tale and she simply asked 'if he wasnt interested then why would he want to consider going together?' then she went on saying 'maybe he still likes you but just doesnt want to go together. dont worry'. Ahhh fick. He doesnt seem interested enough anyway. Arrrgh am flummoxed. And tired. And sad. Goodbye, boy. Take care of yourself while in camp yea...

Sealed With A Liverpool Kiss,
C Casillas
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Michelle Branch- Goodbye to you

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my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder,

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