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Saturday, December 27, 2003

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played in the game of love. and lost. fucking insensitive bastard

excuse the language.
Am very very unhappy with the present situation. Sad, crushed, devastated, dismal,sullen too. Not to mention sick, lifeless and confused. But im telling you none of this can ever ever ever describe my mood precisely. Yep i can laugh now, it wasnt as bad as what i experienced this morning when i received the news. It came in the form of a bloody text message. A TEXT MESSAGE!!! How insincere! What happened was, i woke up to find a pleasant message from him. Thinking it was a nice good morning message from the sweet and thoughtful guy, i opened the message. ONLY to find out that yours truly had just been rejected from the precious. It went like 'Lets not do it eh? Thought about it.' Fine, i thought. I'd be better off without him. But hell no i wouldnt be better off without him. It was like a slap in the face, something that i'd never thought i'd receive. Not at least from him.
But now that it happened, im saddened. But i aint gonna cry. Not that he isnt worth my tears(well he might not be), but its just that im not one to cry over such things. Ok fine im a sucker for jiwang stuff but this aint jiwang cause its happening to me. Goddamnit i played with fire and now i got burnt. So much for the past 2 months of torment. It ended even before it started. Fuckit. And the best is the nonchalance of the text message. It was as if i was asking him about something of unimportance. He didnt care enough to explain why; he also couldnt care less when i replied to his heartbreaking text saying 'okay but why?'. That precious didnt want to explain himself. Which makes me have to guess. He's an utterly unfathomable guy, as bry-q explains it. Yep and i so totally agree with him. These past 2 months i've been guessing, guessing and guessing. Fuckit again man. He's online now, and he doesnt bother to IM me. Fine, and i shall not IM him too, cause i dont want him to think that im some weepy-willow.
Then again maybe it was just a freakin blatant lie when he bloody well said that he was interested in me. Good on him, precious, cause he got me time and time again. His antics would bloody well put ashton kutcher to utmost shame i guess. HE plays with the mind and heart, while ashton only plays with thematerial things in life. Ahhh fuckit.

Sealed With A (heartbroken) Liverpool Kiss,
C Casillas
Current Mood: exanimate
Current Music: Craig david- Im walkin' away

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