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Wednesday, December 17, 2003

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8:37pm: Something good happened!!
On sunday night, something good happened. I mean, the end result was good, but the process was really unnerving for me. I got so nervous i thought i was gonna suffer from a mental breakdown. Ok, here's what happened.
As in my previous entry, i was sooo stoned on sunday morning; i was also kinda sad that day. Had a chat with my cousin and told her all about HIM. She urged me to go find out the answer from him, as to whether he was interested or not. So i told elaine about it, and she very kindly texed him, asking him to tell her if he was still interested in me or not. He never did reply her. Instead, he saw me online and talked to me from there. I was hyperventilating when I saw that he'd IM me on msn that i nearly cried of nervousness. At that point of time i was talking to elaine and i nearly made her nervous too.. What an effect. Oh, anyway, this was some of the text exerpted from out IM:-
HIM: hmm.. you wanna talk about something?
me: eh?
HIM: about us?
me: yeaa what about?
HIM: that how we should proceed or something like that?
me: Oh yea.. tell me about it
HIM: hmm..
HIM: if, we're together eh? how is it gonna be like when i get into the army?
me: I'll wait
HIM: 2 years?
me: sure
HIM: But i mean how if ya get into a jc or poly or wherever and there comes this really nice guy and all? hmm me kinda paranoid sometimes.. sigh
me: is there a nicer guy than you?
HIM: of course, but well maybe i'm just scared
me: What's there to be scared about? i aint those unfaithful kind
HIM: I know you're not...
HIM: you're a nice girl
HIM: =)
HIM: give it 2 years and we shall see what happens?
HIM: if we're meant to be then we will
HIM: i don't want you to be stuck to one guy and give those others a miss
HIM: my sis did the same thing and missed 7 years of her life
me: ya know i wont give anybody a miss cause with you areound i'm just stuck to you
HIM: Why not we give ourselves 2 years and see if the feeling's still there?
me: i don't believe in absence makes the heart grow fonder. realistically its more like out of sight out of mind.
HIM: i know but isnt me going to the army considered out of sight?
me:i know.. if we get together now at least i can still take comfort in knowing that i still have you but if i wait 2 years then its gonna be out of sigh out of mind cause i have nothing to hang onto.
HIM: =(
HIM: can i think about this?
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These are the more important parts, and from his last 2 lines i cant help but have this feeling that he doesnt want us to be together. He said later that he's got some issues and he doesn't wanna tell me about it yet. So i don't know. I gave him time to think things through and he'd have to give me the answer in 2 weeks' time.That's the time where i wont be seeing him for long, cause he's going to the army. I'm soooooooo gonna miss him then.I mean, it was a good thing that the answer he gave me was more positive than it could be negative. And i'm happy with it.
And yeah, back to what i did today.. hehe i made a wicked batch of chocolate chip and double chocolate chip cookies, all in the shape of bears.. They're all sticky inside and chewy on the outside.. heheh i'm soooo not gonna eat them cause i dont like to eat what i baking. Same goes for cooking. Actually i wasn't intending to be THAT happy today, but my friend (or should i say his girlfriend) did a kind deed. Hehehe she sent me an mms of HIM. Hahaha initially when i received the mms i was still in a really sleepy state and when i saw whose pic it was i practically jumped of bed. And from that moment on, i'm a very happy person, considering the fact that i have his pic on my mobile and that my mobile smells of polo blue parfum (its the scent of my ideal man) and also the fact that my bro and his darling girlfriend bought me loads of stuff back from Bangkok AND the fact that i bought yet another Bon Jovi cd yesterday to inch closer to completing the collection of BJ cds [i've only got a couple more to collect before im done!] =) =) =) =)

Sealed With A Liverpool Kiss,
C Casillas
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Bon Jovi- Bad Medicine

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