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Sunday, May 23, 2004

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hey there all.. i'm gonna say something and i think you guys will just balk at what im gonna say. remember HIM?ya know, the one who broke my heart and left me depressed long after he left for army. yea. just realised earlier today that i still havent let him go. seriously. i was happily shopping with chad at lido and then i turned around and saw HIM. with a girl. yea. anti climax right? hah. talk about it man. then i practically went to chad and crumbled on the spot okay. i was so damn shocked and the next thing i realised was that i was sad. or should i say i AM sad.
cause i realised that i havent forgotten him at all. that explains all the 'HE is better than xxxxx'. that explains all the reminiscing. he wasnt back in my life. in fact, he never was in my life. by the way, i asked him if that was his girlfriend through text, and he never bothered to reply me. how sweet. and so i told elaine and she asked his bestie if he had a girlf and well, no surprise. the answer was yes. though i knew i had no hope, the answer just struck me like a knife through my heart. i swear i just stopped in my track and stared in disbelife. oh well i guess subconsciously i was praying that it wasnt true, but unfortunately, things dont always go my way, so there you have it. a broken hearted little old me. seriously all along i thought i was over him but god know it wasnt the case. my heart kinda shattered into a million pieces and im never gonna be able to glue them back again. im so sad. its like i remember him saying he didnt want to get a girlf till he was out from the army and now i see him with a girl. his ex. i died. ok now he replied me. said that im a busybody. fine. sigh sigh sigh.
reflecting back, i realised that he could've just told me in the past that he didnt like me and just make a clean cut but hell no, he chose to leave things undone. and now its back to haunt me. how cool is that? *bitter laugh*
i wont cry, thats for sure, but i wont laugh about it either. im felling damn down and nothing can ever ever cheer me up until the day i get over him, and im serious. i mean REALLY get over him. ahhh well.. lets just wish upon a falling star eh? *more bitter laughs*

SWALK,
me

Mood: words cant express how i feel
Music: Daniel Bedingfield- If you're not the one

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