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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

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hmmmz..
wasn't intending to blog. lazy bones syndrom still significant. Sighz~ So msia was fun, yeah.. shoppings etc. of cos its fun. hanging ut with cher. but.. the travelling was plain tedious. I always thought travelling was tedious. but, yeah..
Singapore idol was funny. the people are simply shameless, egoistic and really tone deaf. yikes.. causes me to cringe. and like cher, i applaud the deaf, speech defective guy and guy whose dad passed away. great jobs. 2 thumbs up.
Am talking to phy online. and she told me to read her blog of inner thoughts and feelings. after reading it. i feel like such a lousy fren. not juz to her. but to everyone. seriously. i guess i am. i weren't there enuf for her during her times of need. there were times whr we hardly communicate, weeks, mths too i think. Gosh i am crap. As for others, rem the hi-bye situation i am talking about? it still exist. Man~ i knew i wasn't an easy person to get along with. I mean, how many can accept a partial schizo? as in really accept. Not thinking i am out for attention. I may seem so. but years as a shizo, snowy has become a diff character. maybe similar to me, after all ppl will prob sae: it's you talking wad," yah true. but maybe i developed snowy to have an entire new character of its own. 1stly, snowys knows of its appeal.. eh.. sort of. i dun have an appeal. there. difference. But, i dunno what is going thru ppl's head when they see snowy or to them, part of me talking. Guess to many readers i dun make sense here. but try to follow ok?
And, back to the frens part. i find that i am not a good enuf. i'm trapped in my tiny anti-social life (not exactly by choice). My life comprises of work, sleep, eat, bath, tv, blogging (reading and writing), chatting online, cheryl and reading. of cos there are others, yah no doubt.. cousin etc. but.. that's it. can u believe it? it's so routine. and seriously, i am getting nauseated with myself. It's not that i didn't try to expand my circle. but. how easy is it to pick up bonds and cultivate it? it seriously needs time, and that i lack. really lack. not enuf time for my school books, and talk bout cultivating more frenships. It's so awkward. but i guess i'll try. i'll expand. i promise myself. i'll ask everyone out. date them. love them. whatever. Juz leave this routined shell. maybe singapore is my shell. That's y i strive to leave. Just leave. really leave. everything.. most everything i guess. To start anew is tempting but difficult. kinda like drug addiction. and i dun have that will power. i know me. i am pretty dependent, weak, useless, stupid. they sae i am bright, but my laziness is the downfall. it's my curse, and seriously, as stupid as it is, i dun wanna change this laziness. it's my drug. sigh.
shan't go on further. i'll depress ppl. weird moods i have rite? i knw. but i guess, wad they sae is true. i get influenced by ppl's mood. many examples i can cite. frens sad, i'll depress to. one great eg is sec 4 prelims, where i did pretty well, but my pals didn't. i from an estatic state, turn to depression. as in real life depression. haha.. good enuf eg eh? And, i muz thank JS, weird rite. but he sat beside me that dae. Thanx JS, tho i know u won't get to see this. but still. Thank u.

you'll nv walk alone..
elaine + snowy

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im remaining 19 for life!
Liverpool FC
Singapore
NUS FASS
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You'll nv walk alone

Totally in love wid`

myself
globe trekking
cocoa dusted almond
white chocolate ice blended
shopping
suppers
Romance novels and chic lit
lychee martinis
zouk
goon

get outta my face if u're..

ugly
act cute
TCMI (totally cannot make it)
after my man

GIMME GIMME GIMME!!

Liverpool jersey
Crumpler bag
Spa treatment
MORE CLOTHES DANG IT!

My bitches and faggies

Goon
Wensu
Winnie
Phyllis
Maril
Gwen
Liane
Beth
Julie
Pauline
Amanda
Joel
Dee
Castor
Javin
Chad
Kwan Shen
Wei Xin
Celest
Lin Feng
Irene
Ruben

Other things to check out

LFC Webbie
Topshop Singapore
Franz Ferdinand
Birkenstock
Beau Monde
Vainpot
XpressFlower
My friends
Love Meridian Day
England Field Trip
Vacation Down South

Credits

my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder,

all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her...

all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter,

she is the tear that hangs inside my soul forever.

-Jeff Buckley