Wednesday, June 30, 2004
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exam period now. totally sucks cause i think i'm gonna fail ALL my papers. ok, this is not helping. i've been plagued by memories- both old and new memories of him. Apparently he texted me on friday at 2am in the morning calling me 'sweetest person' in reply to my forwarded message which i sent to him and another of my friend. I'd sent it without any motives but little did i know that this stupid little message could bring me so much headache, heartache(almost) and jittery nerves that threaten to send me into spasm of happines (arrrrgh he replied!/hes calling me!!!!) or anxiousness (ohmygod ohmygod he didnt reply!!!!!!) and the constant checking of my phone.
Yeah, just like the old days. Oh, i digress. Ok, so he's been saying loads of sweet stuff to me thats supposed to be meant only for his girlfriend. Yeah... you know the usual i-miss-you-do-you-miss-me stuff. Well to be frank it makes me happy to know that he misses me but he's got a girlfriend and it's not right. He went out to meet his friends last saturday after booking out and didn't tell his girlfriend. Or did he? Oh well.. i don't know.
He knows that i still like him (any thick person around can tell you that!!!) and of course i don't deny that i still like him, but i wouldn't readily admit to him yet, in case he's just playing around, in which it is what i think he is doing. He doesn't sound very convincing and although i really want to believe what he's saying, i don't think i can be fully convinced cause he just doesn't give me that impression that he likes me and wants to give up his girlfriend. Oh great- now i sound like a total bitch who came between them. As michael buble (or whoever wrote that song) said, he give's me hot and cold fever but doesn't leave me in cool cool sweat. He only gives me the impression that he's only all talk and no action, really. And this is not something i want. I'm quite sick of having been played around like a fool by him. Dont know if he knows this, but yea.. I'm sick of having such instability in my life.
And i've thought about it (as i did in the past, forever thinking and thinking too much): i put myself in his girlfriend's shoes and its horrible. I mean, of course assuming that he doesn't like her anymore. I see her texting him but to no avail. I see her calling him and he not picking up. I see her finally meeting up with him, and playfully snatching his phone to see who he's texting, only to find that he's texting another girl things like 'i miss ya'. If i were her i'd probably be totally devastated. So yeah, i'ver decided not to text him in reply to this i-miss-you-do-you-miss-me message. Neither would i be part of this scandal-to-be. Okay, in short, i'm attempting NOT to come between them. I don't want to be a bitch. If he doesn't like her anymore then he should just leave her and stop lying to her. And if he was just playing around with me then he should stop this cause it's seriously killing me inside. I trust that he knows what to do.
Sigh... the stupidity and complexity of human feelings- of course i wont deny that i'm smart at doing some things and stupid at others, cause i guess thats what everybody's facing too. I'm a sucker for sweet stuff, by that i mean little gestures or stuff that people say, whether to me or to someone else. I see my friends so in love, doing things that are small in action but big in saying "i love you' and i'd be like 'awwwwwwwww so sweet!' and then i start to think of when that will happen to me, or if it would happen at all. I am, now giving my most wry smile at the thought of this cause just a couple of days ago, i thought it would finally happen to me. But i guess not. I guess his 'like' is not enough to bring us together. Ya know sometimes, when you see a guy doing something really sweet for the girl, like leaving a huge bag of chocolates, a cute soft toy and a little note by her doorstep saying things like 'this bag of goodies is for you to munch when you're hungry. the soft toy is for you to play with when bored in the office. there's a chicken pie in there, remember to eat it while its hot on your way to work okay?', you get all ready to die of sweetness. Obviously the guy came by and left it at the door at like 6.30am cos he wanted the girl to open the door and find it. But the girl just ignores this gesture. I think it's kinda heart wrenching in a way. ohh well... i guess i've said what i came to say. take care guys.
swalk,
me
Mood: confused
Music: wayne wonder- hold me now
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4:12 PM
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LOSE WEIGHT YOU FATSO!!!!
ok,
that's what i am thinking now.. to whom? myself of cos.. argh! i feel fat and i juz can't lie. this is so vexing. i have been BINGING!!!! (What did i tell you? this will go straight to ur ass!).. hmm.. in my case, i wld think it is ass, tummy and thighs.. oh.. and arms.. maybe thins binging thing is like for 1 week? guess i am in that *ahem* mood. fellow, ladies, i'm sure u understaND. u know, the period of time whr ur hormones run wild, absolutely. the PMT period (which guys, eh.. it's e period of time b4 THAT monthly thing *ahem* *embarrassed*). Argh.. this irritationg freaking hormonal charging, binging week is going to go straight to my ass. my mouth enjoy and ass suffer.
I NEED CONSULTANTS! ok.. i'm recruiting. 1.cheryl(Fashion consultant and weight watcher) 2.wensu(daily food intake counseller) 3.jason(gym instructer) 4.Sebas(gym instructer). Sounds like a great plan! ah ha! but, bad news is.. how do u work out thoroughly with a sprain back(and u know how long that takes to recover.. months, years even). argh.. i wanna exercise.. maybe i shld do non back strenuous ones.
i've got smth in mind. walking.. lot's of it (not jogging.. ain't gonna do that.. i HATE it!) i will swim (wensu, interested?). i will also gym(eh.. like stair masters and cycling). i shall also try and do my v.ball(though it involves lotsa back movements) and blading (juz need khaki for that.. east coast park leh.. far!)/ eh.. good. i'll also watch wad i eat. ah ah! no more squid heads!!!!!!!!!! *sobz* no large fries. no soft drinks (fizzy or not) minimal, or small size coffee bean. Marche, share pizza and share rosti. Drink plain water, no ginger beer. alcohol.. cut down (not stop.. simple pleasures in life). sakae sushi, can... minus lotsa sushi (eat the green beans *yum*). eat lotsa salad (home made one.. cut down on dressing). dun snack unhealthily. ah ha! shall stock up on muesli bars.. and get rid of all the chips and soft drinks in my hse. ah ha! i know.. stock up on fat free biscuits!
Alrite, seems like i am all set.. for the fats part of it. Money wise! i need to save up. i know, exam period make my parents pay for my lunch, but it for me and collect my allowance still.. muahahaha... take public transport and dun pay for it (parents).. no clothes shopping. browsing yes. buy important stuff 1st. buy my priority list (roxy sunglasses, lfc new home kit and sony mp3 player), den can buy wad i want. Dun buy my magazines. dun go to coffee bean much (even if go, dun bring atm card).. i shld juz hide my card.. and bring minimum amt of $$ so even if i am tempted, i have no means. muahahahahahaahahah.. smart! anyway, shall stop here. my econs is callin me man~ craps~ i am highly distracted~
you'll nv walk (exercise) alone
elaine + snowy (who dun exercise)
Mood: cranky
Music: selena- dreaming of you
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10:53 AM
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Monday, June 28, 2004
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alritey
this is going to be an ultra short update. seeing that i am supposed to be mugging. guess i am la, in a way, but i cramming a meagle 5min break in between napoleon and south east asia. yeah~ go ahead sae eewww... luckily, i expect that the qns will be ALRITE! i mean, i juz might fail, but non too badly i guess... muahaha.. however, i shall not be too sure of myself. it's 2 qns only. phew~ if any more i'll go mad.. hope they ask me qns that i can answer, like bureaucracy and napoleon's policies.. i dun mind e jacobins.. argh... STRESS STRESS STRESS... week of exams... grrr... white hair...
you'll nv stress alone..
elaine + slping bear
Mood: stressed
Music: she's so high- kurt nilson
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1:25 PM
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
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a miracle happened to me. oh well.. sort of miracle. remember HIM? yea. he's back in my life, as something more than a friend. im sitting on chads bed typing all this out tho its like late already.
ok, to get the story going, i sent him and my sec school senior this cute goodnight message (at about 11pm++) since they sent me one earlier on. at abround 2am i awoke to find that HE replied me, saying stuff like he missed me and 'sweetie' and stuff like that. i was pleasantly shocked i suppose. then as we exchanged more texts, he was starting to sound drunk, saying stuff like 'i wished you were mine instead'.. by then i was totally shell-shocked alredy. i mean, he's got a girlfriend! then just now i text him asking him what was last night's blabbering all about and i asked if he was drunk/mad/whatever. so it appeared that he was neither of the three. he said he liked me. oh wow... total miracle. oh yeah. i told him that if he didn't have any more feeling for his girlf then tell her, don't lead her on. i mean, i didnt say that to make him breakup with her (i'd feel totally horrible about it) but rather i didnt want him to lead her on. yeah.. then soon after he went to sleep, not before messaging me telling me that he'd think of me and 'nite sweet'. i died.
i mean... of course im happy, but quite confused at the same time. why did he tell me that after so long? was he thinking of me since before or did he just happen to realise that he's got feelings for me only recently? and im dying to ask him what makes him think that i should believe what he says? sighs.. so many unanswered questions. exams are coming and great- just the distraction that i need... everytime the exams are coming this HAS to happen.
oh well.. guess i'll just wait and see how it goes. really dont want to be a bitch and intrude in a perfectly healthy relationship. i mean... i understand how the poor girl must feel, but surely the emotional turmoil i went through before was more than hers?
sealed with a liverpool (smoochy smoochy) kiss
-cher-
Mood: confused
Music: jason mraz- you and i both
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4:04 PM
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
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okay, its like 1.10am and i feel really weird. my bro and i are talking about gelato. he told me that gelato is made from milk, while ice cream is made when a person sits on the toilet bowl and squeezes his ass. (yuck) then i happily interjected, "noooo!! its actually the relaxation of the rectum', then he, being everybit the gross ass said, 'yeah.. when you squeeze you ass it will cut the shit.' me: (x_x)
its weird right.. and worse still.. read:-
gay. says:
WEI
gay. says:
i sacrifice u ar..
gays says:
im telling ppl im str8 and u my gf..
gay says:
HAHAHA
can i die? he's supposed to be GAY!! oh well he still is, but the thought of it!!!!! Totally weird boy!! oh whatever.. i need go to mug already. seeya
swalk,
me
Mood: weird
Music: brother's snores
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4:08 PM
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
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hmm.. digressing from work!
man~ hahah
i can't help it. i'm taking a lil digression (break) from work. eh.. considering that i've been working hard for 1/2hr, i deserve it. jkjk. i juz NEED to write this la. after that, i promise to do some more work. this week, i intend to immense my brain so deeply in work that i'll pass my mid yrs. i hope. i've been having a burnt out mth, but that's it! this is not the way. tho, i've been evacuated from my usual study place. i am going to do it!! even if i burn my nights. which means, i will finish any homework. go read my lit, do hist, study econs, attempt to practice chi.
ah ha! but this is not the agenda for todae's blogging. haha.. i mean, wad makes u think i'll complain about work online ( fine! i know i do that 24/7)? yeah~. juz tot to address myself. remember that i promise not to crush anymore? yeap! i'll stick to that tot tho i can bet that many of u readers wld disagree vehemently. bet u all think that i've been harbouring a crush. well, i dun know if i am. really i don't. but i hope not. not to mention, a crush hurts big time. it breaks my puny lil heart into a zillion pieces. and everytime, after a crush, i feel shallow. argh! which makes me think that i am shallow, that is y i am having all these crushes. yup, some is for looks (which made me feel absolutely more shallow, if possible), others is personality (which makes me qn myself, how well do i know them, to have a right to crush on them for personality). get me so far? or are u spinning along with me?
guess wensu, u are rite. if i am having a crush (which i really hope not, and dun THINK so la), i will have to control it. i'm rather satisfied with my position now actually. kinda like this 'we are frens only' feeling. I dun wanna be an annoying pest, which i feel that i am. hahaha.. guess i can occupy myself (suggested way) with books. as in textbooks. after all, mids are coming! or even if somehow, i find out that i am harbouring a crush, i'll JUST KEEP SWIMMING. and occupy myself further. and not get my hopes high, or in fact dun give myself hope. sounds like a great plan. yes! that's exactly wad i'll do.
oh, well. think i'll go back to occupying myself with my rather interesting econs home work..
hmmmm... facinating
you'll nv walk alone
elaine + snowy
Mood: amused
Music: evan and jerone- e distance(nono, it's not crazy 4 this gal)
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5:57 AM
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
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slp over
oh yeah~
my parents are out of town. haha.. they are off to m'sia. so i have the whole house to myself.. so i thought. then later, i asked my cousin to join. that i had a crazee idea. a slp over. how cool is that? so nowm phy, sebas and jas are coming over. haha. tho my hse got nth to entertain them la. haha.. but still.. yeah! can have heart to heart talks. looking forward to that.. muahaha... or juz crap around..
maybe i might juz tell my parents. i mean. they won't mind rite? it's not as if we are doing anything wrong. no kissing no nth. hahah.. really. maybe a lil drinking? but i drink all e time.. haha.. i dunno. juz damn glad now :)
you'll nv ton alone
elaine + snowy
Mood: ecstatic
Music: jars of clay- love song for the savious
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2:33 PM
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
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TIOMAN ROCKS~~ QUIS!
lalalalalala~
alright i am in a gd mood. cos i have a great time. haha.. good mood due to great time.. normal i guess. had so much fun that i still feel like hanging out and forgoing my studies. but well.. no1. mom will kill. 2.stepdad will kill 3.teachers will kill. 4.principal will kill 5.conscience will kill.. hahah.. u het the idea. sooo muz study!!
Anyway, tioman was great la. like duh! tho the trip thr is kinda lengthy. everyone slpt. haha.. so 1st dae, once we reached tioman, we went swimming. thank god i decided to bring 2 swim suits ah.. haha.. played in e water in front of my mom's resort. damn hiok and cooling. was picking shells etc. and play water v.ball can? haha.. so pathetic man.. water vball. and i come to a conclusion. indoor vball is easier!! haha.. anyway, the ball decided to float away.. so had a tough time picking up e ball. the current decide to push it further and further away.. towards the rocky slippery area. think lots of us kena cut in e process of ball picking. haha.. and sebas saw a water snake too.. craps.. which prompt us to run away from e water. haha. but false alarm. not that there was NO snake la.. juz that it didn't swim towards us and snip at out butt.. sebas decided to buid a fortress which me and wensu and jason attempt to destroy.. with tiny pebbles.. kinda not recommended when he was using big rocks. haha..
we went to change and bathe afterwards. was suppose to walk around after that. how was i to know, everyone fall aslp in e process. haha.. i woke up when phy woke up.. cos my dad arrived. and so later i ateempt to wake everyone up. I TELL U! THAT REQUIRED REAL EFFORT! muz wake them up one by one. 1 wake up, go to the next, adn the one who woke up take the opportunity to go back to slp. muz scream pillow fight at jason. haha thus, sebas said he was lucky. he lucky ah. i wake him up, as compared to jason is not scary. muahaha.. wad e hell rite? we went to eat dinner den adn the cats were rubbing themselves against everyone.. except me. cos i put my leg on e chair. smart eh? sorry la. i was clean. dun want no dirty cat to rub itself on me. fleas and all. they are murder. and we went to star gaze soon after. i lay on phy, phy and ws lay on jason, sebas didn't get laid on.. smart fellow who sat FFFAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR away.. hsha. the stars were gorg. tho i cld not spot my belt of orien. felt a lil inept cos of it. den we oso drank. i had a vodka lime. jason took a tackila (is that how u spell it? tacquila) sebas took a screwdriver. phy and wensu took vodka lime after asking for recomendation. i still dun like the tacquila/tekila. haha.. screw driver was ok. vodka lime not bad.. tho i prfer my hooch. ws got a lil high. hahahaahhaah.. face turn red after approc 1/4 of the cup.. hahah.. sad man. glad to see her and jason and infact everyone hitting off. tho she and jason keep fighting.. esp pillow fight later that night. which, needless to sae, she lost. looking back, i rem i lost too. haha.. i gave up trying to win pillow fight. muahaha.. the slping arrangement was squashy. we all slpt on the queen/king bed. no one wanted the single bed. it was thin and had lotsa big ants near it. so jason squeezed with me and wensu. of cos, i slpt in e mid. felt like a sardine. literally. i had so lil place to slp. this tells u nv to try slping too many on a bed meant for 2. hahaha.. 3 is a crowd ;)
the next dae we went snorkling. had a hard time waking them up.. as usual la. worst infact. they took such a long time to get ready that we had lil time to makan breakfast and almost run to the jetty. the corals are beautiful. me, dad and ws swam together. cool man! tho i was having paranoia thruout. wad with tyhe thoughts of sharks and moraeels.. yucky! esp when my dad like to lead us to dark corners. whr i heard moraeels likes to hide. CRAPS! we went to the marine park next. haha.. i like the loat thr. sebas sae he spotted a couple of small vocanoes there! SHIT MAN! more than 5 def! wah lao. now den sae. shall ask my mom about it. i refused to jump from the jetty to the water. they all did. but.. no way man. i was afraid of heights. i didn't even dare to jump during sec2 camp flying fox. needed a teacher to push me down. hahaha.. so wad makes u think that i will dare to jump down from there? kaoz.. scary ah.. so we snorkle a lil, see corals, a lil diff for me, cos my vision is blur. shall ask my mom to make a mask for me man. cannot take it. might get headache ah.. yah. so we were resting and slacking on the float. so shiok. had great pleasure in pushing sebas down the float. which he ten threaten to push me down the jetty. kaoz! scary leh... i think that's whr we all got our burns..
we went to snorkle around the island again. the corals look great duiring low tide. but me and jason went to laze at the new float thr. haha.. not bad. sebas take great delights in telling us he is a low profile swimmer.. in fact, he is e best.. unless u toking bout my dad too la. haha was fun la. in e end, went to slp again back in e hotel. sebas created a campfire by the beach.. haha.. and lots of us kena cuts and bruises. dunno y oso.! oww~ wensu is e worst man. looks painful. at night we wen to to drink again. poor jason, so tired still drink so much. so he did the unmentionable. shall not sae wad tho to save him embarassement. haha..
at nite we played truth or truth whr we really bonded.. talked non stop. sooo fun.. and snowy was kissing everyone! as usual la. ahaha.. fun man! we took lotsa pics.. and cried out in pain for sunburnt.. hmm.. hahah.. fun! i want to do it again! i shall!
ISLAND LIFE, LOVE IT---> TIOMAN!~
YOU'LL NV BURNT ALONE!
elaine + snowy
Mood: cheerful
Music: Blue- breathe easy
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3:29 AM
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
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hi people!! i think i'm becoming a real shopaholic soon. either that or i just have a fetish for tops. i think so far since may, i've bought about approximately 4-5 tops. for different occasions. and i'm gonna buy a few more- lets see, i want a paul frank tank, a topshop orange halter, a mango toga, a mphosis bag, new flip flops (orange!!)..... thats all for now i guess. haha. plus my levis 593. i'm gonna slay the people at levis cos they still havent called to tell me if my stock have arrived or not!! oh yeah, and i want heels. thats all. for now. really!!
oh and i think i'm gonna be a gambler soon. hah... i've really been hit by idol and euro 2004 fever. last week i bought chad's idol number, my house and my neighbour's house number for 4d, then now i'm putting a wager on soccer. i predict holland to lead, then germanyy win full time. they better win man.. haha
anyways im gonna nap for awhile.
ps: im still NOT over the 2 hotties... arrrgh i'm nosebleeding again!!
i like hot bods and i cannot lie!!,
cher
Mood: lusty
Music: Blue- You make me wanna
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1:34 PM
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Monday, June 14, 2004
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im so dying of lustfullness now can. if there is such a word. oh my god. i took 2 pics with 2 of the most gorgeous male models ever!! they were doing promos for davidoff perfume and i sluttily took 2 pics with them and they were like putting their hands round my waist and i out mine round theirs. wow wow wow.. i'm lusting after them like hell... and they're so friendly!! the blond one is. the black haired one was soooo shy! he just said hi while the other asked how i was doing and stuff like that.... *nosebleeds nonstop*
pwwwhoarrr.. how i wish the guys would lsay something like 'hey.. the cam's spoilt. hold your position right there' or something then i wouldve been on cloud 9 for a little while more.... sighs
ok tonites france v england. shall go lust after them now. cya peeps
(two of) you & i both loved
Mood: L-U-S-T-Y
Music: electric 6- danger! high voltage
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2:19 PM
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Sunday, June 13, 2004
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HOT HOT H-O-T!!!!!!!!!! im soooo lusty... oh god they're just sooooooo hot. *i like hot bods and i cannot lie....*
sealed with a really hot bod,
me
Mood: L-U-S-T-Y
Music: britney spears- toxic/ blue- too close
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3:56 PM
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Saturday, June 12, 2004
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ok. its 1.12am and i'm bloody gonna get screwed by my parents for not sleeping. ha-di-ha ha! (learnt that from becky bloomwood) yea.. lets see.. ok yesterday i went for acjc's band performance, must say it was not bad. liked the lion king themes as well as the pirates of the carribean theme too. after the performance chad,wy,javin,mao^2 jovan and i went to thai expresses. and i'm telling you the mango glutinous rice wasn't good. should have gone over to the pasta bar at millenia walk to eat. but what the hell.
then today we were supposed to go for othello but i suspect that the tix were already sold out so i didn't bother going. so did chad and wy. duhhhh!!! instead chad and i went to town for a little shopping and qc. had soooooo much fun trying on blazers at g2000 and topshop. shall make a mental note to get the black pinstriped one when i'm feeling really generous. wanted to get the v-halter top thingy in orange (i have the green one) but then again i wanted to get a small mambo shoulder bag and a paul frank tank top with julius on the front. but guess what? i ended up buying a pastel green and black tank top from topshop. oh well, i had to!! it was on 20% off if you got 2 pieces and so that's what i did! i got 2! and i'll bet your pants that mom will never know cos i've got so many tankies. ha-di-ha ha!! ok, its like 1.20am and i'm supposed to wake up at 5am to go for chad's idol thingy. and the thing is i havent bathed, nor have i packed my bag, as opposed to what i told mao^2, and my throat hurts. damn. shouldn't have eaten the durian and strawberry gelato or the fried fish thingies at chad's place. but what the hell... its gonna be a loooong day tomorrow. so ciao!!
swalk,
me
Mood: tired
Music: lizzie maguire- what dreams are made of
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4:12 PM
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004
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okay.. nice.. i worked out just now, sweat like hell and now i feel soooo good! Like after ten thousand years of not going for training you suddenly go work out and you just feel happy about it. Ok.. That said, i think im gonna hit the gym like three to four times a week since im not in track anymore. Otherwise i'll have a cellulite filled butt and all those undesirables. Haha.. Am like removing my old polish and giving a feet a nice new coat. *yay* anyways, chad went for idol auditions and got thru.... without even having to sing!! then comes the real test (of vocal skills) next saturday. oh what the hell.. gotta.... *trails off*
"To vote for your favourite idol, dial 1866-IDOLS-09, thats 1866-4365709.Remember, thats 1866 numbers, not 1800 numbers. Alright, thats all for tonight's show, seacrest out!"
Mood: mad
Music: Daniel Bedingfield- Girlfriend
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8:29 AM
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Monday, June 07, 2004
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CB!
Yes, dunno if anyone still remember wad CB stands for.. Ahem, cute *toot*.. yeah. i saw him in Sentosa! finally.. after 1mth plus, or more than that, he decided to materialise! *nosebleed*. i shld have know he wld come due to the volleyball matches held at SSB. being a volleyball mad guy, i guess it is juz normal if he particpated in e match.. hmm..
he waved to me! and talked to me! *grinz dumbly* proves that he REMEMBERS! duh~ he who commented that i am damn tan. haha.. and do not know whr MJC is. haha.. joke ah. i was like "Hello, woah, so long nv ee u here" den he replied with a "no la, 3 weeks only" gosh.. which made me think quickly. i was NOT thr 3 weeks ago. oso dunno wad i have la. maybe it was my 'i want to slp wk" which prob only cher and andy will understand. haha if it is i wanna stab myself. i prevented myself from ogling at him. *growls and stab myself* hai~
however, as gorgeous as he still maybe, i think that maybe his 'greek god' 'damn cute ah' 'argh.. drooling' factor might have diminished. A LITTLE ONLY! haha.. yeah.. he seem to lose abit of his goldeness, like sort of lose this sense of glowing, gold aura.. sad man~ that's e thing bout eye candy. if u see them too often, they kinda fades and look more human with each meeting again. but still.. he is gorgeous.. haha
in e end, i dun even know if he won. haha.. but yah, the dae was not wasted. i bonded with ppl and that rocks! :D
Went to watch my Harry potter, again. haha.. i'm not sick of it.. yet.. haha.. maybe i will be as crazee for harry potter, socceror's stone. haha.. whre i watched 5 TIMES! haha.. well, if i have e time :D HARRY POTTER BECAME HANDSOME! at least, i think i share e same sentiments as chad. cher disagrees. but really, he became cute. and neville longbottom too. but not VERY la. he kinda lose his baby fats, esp around the cheek. more longish than roundish. and he look tall. look wad 1 and a 1/2 yr away from e screen happen. u get pubertyED kids. well semus finigan still looks the same tho. haha.. Hermoine looks prettier (she know how to wear hipsters eh) oh, did i mention that they are playing a role of 12 yr olds, when most of them is around 14-15? haha.. now u nkow why daniel redcliffe looks cuter. well, i hardly sean beggerstaff, aka oliver woods tho. maybe a glimpse of like wad, less than 1 sec? hai~ how i want to see more of him, how he changed. tho i doubt much, afterall, he did pass his puberty stage. hha..
"... Or do u take pride in being an insufferable know it all?"
you'll nv walk alone
elaine + snowy
Mood: cheerful
Music: selena- dreaming of you
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1:47 AM
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Sunday, June 06, 2004
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1866-IDOLS-04
OH MY GOD! so chads going for the auditions tomorrow afterall. thanks to me. ha. i bugged him to go for it when he said he was too lazy to wake up. sheesh~ hes gonna sing crazy little thing called love and chain of fools, but i seriously think he should sing my girl instead of crazy little thing. its a safer song than crazy. but its his choice, oh well..
anyways i got my mom to get my gola bad from world of sports today. its big and gorgeous! and cheap of course. it was on 20% discount. =) so she paid for it. yay!! haha..
okay anyways i think i shall go off to bed, gonna wake up early tomorrow. nitez people
"to vote for chad, call 1866-IDOLS-04, that's 18664365704. Calls are charged at standard rates from landlines. ATT wireless subscribers can text the word 'vote' to.... thats all for today, seacrest out!"
Mood: anxious
Music: the corrs- summer sunshine
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2:39 PM
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Saturday, June 05, 2004
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once again people, im tormented by memories of him. all because i unknowingly played miss you finally by trademark. it kinda triggered memories of him- when he left. its not like some rah rah thing that we were together, but well.. it was the first song i heard on that day. so there you have it. a tormented little old me. thought the hols have taken over memories of him, but i still recall what happened, as if it all happened only yesterday. interesting huh? hope i get over this soon. its like a long story that we all know the end, but it just keeps unravelling and just when we think its ended, it unravels more. what the heck..then now i realise memories are forever be it good or bad. so dear me.. i'll have to live with it.. god bless me..
swalk,
a very tormented me
Mood: sad
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4:03 PM
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woot~ went to town (as usual) today. qc failed cos there was nobody on my hot list. And then i went to tampines and i saw this total gorgeous guy who really looked like utt. i swear!! pwwwhoar~ walked past him a couple of times and my nose really wanted to bleed man. haha.. oh yeah. whatever..
stole abit of wy's ebi rice burger from mos. hmm.. not bad. might want to switch from my usual oh-so-fattening teriyaki chicken burger in future. and im finally going ssb tomorrow to support andy and e ssb team in the vball tournament. said that if they win then i'll get them a sweet secret cheesecake. hahaaa.. and i wonder whats with me today. i keep seeing people that i know, ie cindy and hwee sian, miss T, godwin, xihui and the guys... like the whole world's in town or something.. yea. anyway gotta run for my japanese jelly. see ya peeps
swalk,
me
Mood: hungry
Music: wayne wonder- hold me now
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2:39 PM
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Friday, June 04, 2004
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ok.. the days been pretty much ok. just that everytime i wanna buy something, they wouldnt have e size. or colour. or whatever that allows me to not possess it. how nice. went to try levis 599 or 593 (?) jeans then they didnt have e colour n worn-for-a-thousand-and-one-times finish. sighhhh.. its one hell of a unique washed out piece which costs 140 bucks. but what the hell, i aint the one paying for it.. *evil laughter*
sighs. on a more serious note, i havent been doing my hol assignments! i am so gonna be screwed. and remember my 200 buck bills? hahaaaa... i'll have to pay for it myself. god bless me.. =) oh anyway, chads joining singapore idol! how exciting.. haha. i'll be a friend who is a star. yep. then he can live his 'pop prince' dream, eh? hahaha.. or at worst, i'll sing 'midnight train to georgia' to him.. ya know, especially the part which says "...someday he'll be a star (a superstar, didnt get far), so he found out the hard way, that dreams dont always come true..." hahaha.. oh gosh. im being sooo bad. oh yeah whatever ..*fakes scouser accent*
swalk,
me
Mood: amused
Music: jasmine trias- midnight train to georgia
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2:11 PM
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Tuesday, June 01, 2004
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i 'like' big butts and i can't lie..
yeah~
especially humongous ones that smells like shit. guess wad happen? of cos u know i was juz being sarcastic rite? i mean? i like butts juz fine, but big oneas on ur thighs is juz not pleasant. me, cher, jav, edison, chad were in e train, NE line, going to PS to makan la after a trip to sentosa. so, me and cher were sitting side by side when we pass little india. yes lil india. so, 1st there was a commotion. the ppl were making a racket in the train, so irritating ok! they cld'nt catch the train in time so wad they do? they smart smart put their plastic in the door, and the door happily closed on it. thus they pressed the penalty button thingy, misusing it, when they can actually juz pull it out. den the door opened and they rushed in,. the whole gaggle of them. how i hope they didn't. cos 5 min later, this indian bitch (fat humongus one with an ass so huge and heavy that it can sink our sunny island) motion me and cher to move aside. we were like no place wad how to move. but she insisted, so me inched, lemme stress the word, INCHED away. the fat bitch had to turn around and to my horror, my vision was block by her cholestro and fat full buttocks. and she happily sat on our laps, that stupid lump of a shit. if she cannot tahan her own weight on her fit, i can only see 2 option, 1. marie france body line, which might not have a machine bug enough for her ass, or 2. dun go shopping til her feet aches! i had to squeeze chad who than quickly evacuate the seat for me to slide across without breaking my leg. fat ass bitch look so satisfied with herself. STUPID ASSHOLE COW SHIT BITCH INDIAN! i was so overwhelmed by her butt! grrr. yuck!
you'll nv run away from butts alone
elaine + snowy
Mood: cranky
Music: danied B- never gonna leave ur side
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7:53 AM
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